The
bodies were discovered throughout the first-floor railroad flat in
Brooklyn, a bizarre still-life of death. Many of the victims remained
seated in chairs or couches; one woman’s hands still held a spoon and a
small can of pudding.
It came to be known as the Palm Sunday Massacre, the largest mass shooting in the New York area in decades. Ten people were killed
that day 30 years ago, including eight children. Only one survivor was
found: a crying toddler covered in blood, crawling at the feet of the
dead.
The
tiny girl was handed to one of the first police officers to arrive. A
front-page photograph in The New York Post, under the headline “The Only
Survivor,” shows the officer clutching Christina Rivera, 13 months old,
a pacifier in the child’s mouth.
The
officer was assigned to the toddler through the night, taking her to
the hospital and then watching over her at a police station in East New
York. Since that day, the officer has never really let go.
The
officer became the girl’s benefactor, then a surrogate parent. At age
14, Christina moved in with the officer and her new husband. And then
last year, the officer adopted Christina, now 31.
It
is a remarkable story, never told publicly before and little known even
at Police Headquarters, where the officer, Joanne Jaffe, rose to become
the Police Department’s highest-ranking female chief.
But as the 30th anniversary of the massacre approached, Chief Jaffe and
Ms. Rivera were ready to tell their story, describing an unlikely
relationship that emerged from one of the city’s most gruesome crimes.
“I
can’t imagine my life without her,” Ms. Rivera said last week. “She
taught me what it was like to hope and to truly trust; if ever in life I
didn’t think things would work out, I could trust her, and I would just
put all my trust in her and she would get me through to the other
side.”
From Duty to Love
By
April 15, 1984, Officer Jaffe had already spent nearly four years in
the 75th Precinct, one of Brooklyn’s most violent. But nothing
approached the horror that awaited inside 1080 Liberty Avenue. Among the
dead were Christina’s mother, Carmen Perez, 20; two half brothers,
Alberto, 5, and Noel, 3; and several cousins. With guns drawn, Officer
Jaffe and her partner went from room to room, looking in vain for the
killer, who turned out to be Christopher Thomas, a cocaine addict
arrested two months later.
Christina had been brought outside by a neighbor, and she would soon find her way into Officer Jaffe’s arms.
“I was assigned to her and fell in love with her,” Chief Jaffe recalled.
That
night, Officer Jaffe asked to take the baby home, but child welfare
services instead arranged for Christina to stay with a foster family in
Coney Island. Two detectives rode in the front, with Christina and
Officer Jaffe in the back — an image of which was on newsstands the next
morning in what could be called their first family photo.
Christina
would be reunited with her father, a building superintendent in
Manhattan, but was sent to live with her grandmother Felicia Rivera.
Christina grew up on a bad block in Washington Heights in Upper
Manhattan, her grandmother devoted but overprotective. She was not told
what had happened that Palm Sunday. Her grandmother once mentioned that
Christina’s mother had asthma; from that, the girl concluded, her mother
must have died of an asthma attack.
The
truth came out when she was about 10. One day, Christina came home from
school agitated: A girl told her that her mother had been murdered.
“Are you ready for this?” her grandmother asked.
A collection of New York Times articles following the April
15, 1984, shooting in Brooklyn that left 10 people dead.
Chester Higgins Jr./The New York Times
A
gray suitcase emerged, stuffed with laminated newspaper clippings,
telling of the murder of not only her mother but of two siblings she
never even knew she had. One of the articles had a diagram of where the
victims were found, some in front of the television, others napping on a
bed. Christina fixated on the woman with the spoon, she said. “I
remember focusing on that detail,” she recalled. “Who were they
feeding?”
By
then, Chief Jaffe said, she was already a presence in Christina’s life.
She would drop in to play with Christina, leaving behind a gift for the
child and some spending money for the grandmother.
In
vague terms, Christina was told by her grandmother that Chief Jaffe
“had been there from the beginning.” Slowly, Christina began to realize
what her grandmother meant.
“I
really began to grasp that she was a first responder there,” Ms. Rivera
said. “I can remember starting to ask her about it: hesitantly first,
because I didn’t know what her reaction was going to be. But she was
always very good about it.”
A Constant Presence
Christina, who thought of Chief Jaffe as “the funny police lady who would come by,” began to think of her as her mother.
The
transformation began with a coincidence. Chief Jaffe, then an
up-and-coming commander with a voice demanding attention, had been
reassigned from a quiet precinct in TriBeCa to lead a crime-ridden
precinct in Washington Heights. She immediately thought of how near she
would be to Christina, who lived only two blocks from the station house.
Chief
Jaffe soon visited the apartment on an early afternoon. Christina was
home because her grandmother was feeling too ill to walk her to school.
When she saw Chief Jaffe in full uniform, Christina recalled recently,
she mistakenly thought she might be in trouble for truancy.
The
visits would become more frequent, and Christina started dropping by
the station house after school, playing games on a sergeant’s computer.
On weekends, Chief Jaffe began taking Christina on trips with her
fiancĂ©, Doug Lennihan, also a police officer, to a relative’s place in
Connecticut. Christina went fishing and stomped through the woods — new
activities for her.
“It was unbelievable to watch her thrive, this little scared child,” Chief Jaffe recalled.
As Christina entered her teenage years, the challenges of schoolwork and adolescence became too much for her grandmother. One day, Christina’s father and grandmother appeared at the precinct house with a request.
“They
said, she gets along with me, she loves me, and they just said, ‘Could I
raise her? Could I take her?’ ” Ms. Jaffe recalled.
“I always wanted to have more of a role — I never in my life thought it would turn into where she’d come to live with us.”
She wanted to say yes, but she was about to be married.
Chief
Jaffe suggested to her fiancé that they wait a year before taking
Christina in. “I thought we should settle down and get married first,”
she said.
Mr. Lennihan, who had three older children from an earlier marriage, reacted quickly.
“I
said, ‘Sure, let’s take her, let’s bring her in,’ ” recalled Mr.
Lennihan, who has since retired from the department as a lieutenant.
“This was after we had taken Christina away for all these weekends and
we were involved with her. I really liked her. I loved this little kid.”
Once they were together in the couple’s new home in Queens, Chief Jaffe came to see Christina’s turmoil firsthand.
At
times, Christina would ask questions about the murder of her mother.
She wanted to know where precisely in the home she had been found.
During one spell, she sat with a headset on, listening over and over to a
recording of a 1984 news radio account about the murders, trying to
discern some new hint or clue about what had happened.
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“There
is this huge hole — that’s what I call it — in her soul. She had lost
her mother,” Chief Jaffe recalled. “We could only fill the hole, but it
could never be removed.”
The
new parents also realized that they needed to do more than simply raise
a teenager; they needed to instill a sense of self-reliance and
confidence in Christina.
It
has been a gradual process. In Washington Heights, Christina had slept
in the same bed as her grandmother; now, for the first time, she slept
alone.
With
considerable prodding, Christina began venturing out of the apartment
herself. A big step was in overcoming her anxiety to go to the corner
store to buy milk by herself; eventually she would work up the courage
to travel alone from Queens to Manhattan to visit Chief Jaffe, who by
then had moved to the 19th Precinct on the East Side.
“Getting
her to take the bus on Queens Boulevard to the city was huge,” Chief
Jaffe recalled. “Chris thought she would get lost, or have a panic
attack.”
Still,
Christina had a tendency to cling to Chief Jaffe, emotionally and
physically. “There wouldn’t be more than a foot of space between us, and
I’d bump into you,” she told Chief Jaffe recently. She said she kept
close because she feared her new mother would disappear.
That
fear of abandonment led Christina to resent Mr. Lennihan, whom she
viewed back then as a rival for Chief Jaffe’s attention. Her entries in a
journal grew darker. Concerned over this, as well as the long hours
that Christina spent by herself at home while they were on duty, the
couple approached Christina’s father and made arrangements for her to
live with him in Manhattan after about a year.
Only
once did she ask her father what her mother had been like. “He got very
quiet for the rest of the day,” Christina recalled years later. She has
never asked him again, she said.
Christina
graduated from Baruch College Campus High School, and, with help from
Chief Jaffe and Mr. Lennihan, went off to college. She struggled and
left after five years.
An Orphan Belongs
In
her early 20s, Christina decided to learn more about her mother’s life.
She and Chief Jaffe made their first visit to the graves of her mother
and two half brothers.
“I
remember being surprised at how young she was,” she said, recalling
seeing her mother’s birth date on the tombstone. “I wanted to know what
she meant to people, what she was like.”
Chief
Jaffe recalled that she had told Christina that her mother would be
“unbelievably proud” of her daughter and “what a caring, thoughtful
person you were.” But Christina found no deeper meaning or connection in
the visit; she said she “wasn’t at a place yet where I could let it
reach me.”
She
would come to better understand the significance of her loss a few
years later while working at an office day care center. One day, a
little girl began to cry. Ms. Rivera picked her up and tried to comfort
her, but the child was inconsolable. Eventually, Ms. Rivera called the
child’s mother, who was nearby. When the mother arrived, the child
almost leapt from Ms. Rivera’s arms to her mother’s. The crisis was
resolved.
But
Ms. Rivera kept thinking about it. Later, in a therapy session, she
realized that she was really thinking of herself: She had been the same
age when she was held by a young police officer that night on Palm
Sunday. She, too, must have missed her mother and waited for her to
return, not realizing “she was never going to come back,” she recalled.
“Just
like that the floodgates were opened,” Ms. Rivera said. “It was almost
like I had delayed grieving for 22 years and all of a sudden it just hit
me.”
Over
the last few years, Ms. Rivera has grown in confidence. She has a job
with the state and has become an auxiliary police officer. But the
events of April 15, 1984, are never safely in the past.
In
2009, she and Chief Jaffe began attending parole hearings for Mr.
Thomas, who was found guilty of 10 counts of manslaughter but was acquitted
of murder because the jury believed he had acted under extreme
emotional distress and the influence of years of drug abuse. There was
some evidence that Mr. Thomas believed his wife was sleeping with the
man who lived at the home on Liberty Avenue. Neither was present at the
time of the rampage, authorities said, and Mr. Thomas killed the women
and children he found.
Around
this time, Christina’s grandmother died; the death had a profound
effect on her, and led Chief Jaffe to follow through on a promise that
she made when Christina first came to live with her: She would adopt
Christina.
For
a number of reasons, the adoption had not happened, a fact that was
often brought up by Ms. Rivera during arguments over the years.
“I
felt very orphaned, if that makes sense, even though my mom was still
my mom and still there for me,” Ms. Rivera said. “It was almost like I
wanted to be claimed, like, ‘I’m her daughter, I belong to her.’ ”
A little more than a year ago, Chief Jaffe fulfilled her pledge.
“I’d
seen her ups and downs in life and I said I owe it to this kid,” she
recalled. “I thought that maybe I was part of the hurt — I’d promised
her as a kid and I never followed through. I thought this is what she
needs if that hole in herself is ever going to be filled.”
She
told her husband about her intention; he reminded her of another reason
to go forward. “He would say, ‘It’s for you, too. You need it, too,’ ”
the chief recalled. She sometimes overlooked how badly she, too, wanted
to make it official. “I never saw that part of it.”
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